I love the Lord so so much
SIS kless thank you so much for your prayer. I know i can always count on you ..so far yet so near in my heart.... well God indeed answers our prayers. Yesterday i prayed to God about the situation again. I remember between 4-5pm, i could feel the devil attacking me ! I was at my study table, on the left of my room, the lady was quarelling loudly on the phone and on my right, the guy was as usual starting to play his game with his friend, banging on the walls more than ever. Then here i was with a pile of work.. arghhhh! It all seems small when you hear it, tristan said " its all the little things mah " but to me at that time, i just felt so suppressed by everything. Small rocks make a mountain right? I needed to GET OUT !!!! I decided i needed to let it all out so i headed for the gym for a good workout. You know God IS EVERYWHERE! As i was on the treadmill, so many thoughts were running through my head to the point that i didnt even focus on whatever i was physically doing. I was having a MENTAL EXERCISE. I blasted hillsongs from my ipod and focused on Jesus and spoke to Him again about everything. I asked Jesus " pls tell me what to do. Shall i move rooms or shall i stay...if you want me to move room, pls let me meet somebody i know when im on the way back to my room. If you think i should not move, let me meet my neighbour " or Jesus, just do it anyway you want. Just tell me what to do. I don't want to decide on my own." SO there i was perspiring like a dog and talking to God. And no matter how smelly, ugly, Jesus is always listening. On the way back to my room, I SAW MY NEIGHBOUR !!!!! Nobody can say its a coincidence ....He was standing there w a group of people and they all turned to look at me when i walked up. How about that !!!! Immediately i knew what i needed to do. I walked straight into my room and started to write a letter ( about having no hard feelings and explaining the situation and why i complained and saying sorry etc) to my neighbour and slotted it under his door and i just felt so peaceful after that. Like a rock has been lifted up from my shoulders. Since yesterday , my neighbour hasnt disturbed me in any way. Even if he starts doing it again, i wont complain anymore. I would pray . God is bigger than any receptionist !! God's strength is much bigger than what i can do. I love to be in melbourne! I feel that I have started to totally rely on God like never before. I have never felt so strongly for God in Singapore. I mean praise the Lord for City Harvest Church and everybody i know in SIngapore. But praise God too that i am here. I am here for a purpose and a time such as this. I am here not at a cost, i am here because God wants me to get stronger for Him. In my little sanctuary, i see and feel God. I cry even during online services. God's power extends across all nations, all methods, all people. Just this episode with my neighbour, God is trying to tell me sth. LEAN ONTO ME AND I SHALL LEAN ONTO YOU. DONT TURN YOUR BACK ON ME AND RELY ON YOUR OWN STRENGTH. HAVE FAITH, TRUST, REMEMBER MY GOODNESS, REMEMBER HOW YOU FIRST LOVED ME. God have to take care of so many people. but He remembers each of us. When we cry out to Him with all of our hearts, He will come....Anybody can say anything, the Da Vinci Code can challenge the basic foundations of christianity, but nobody, and NOBODY can ever challenge the fact that God is real, God is Good. So what if we don't physically see Him? His goodness need not be seen in the physical realm. What is not in the physical cannot be pushed. So our faith being the substance of things unseen cannot be pushed nor wavered. It is in our hearts and our experiences tell us how real God is.
Without fear..
I am very troubled these days...My neighbour is giving me alot of headache... I can hear him playing games, having his friends over, cheering loudly, cursing at past midnight almost every night. In the day time, he blasts his music from 9am onwards. I have attempted to rationalize, make excuses for him like its friday , its sat, its sun, it a holiday, its still early, i don't have to study, he needs to have fun, i cannot be so petty etc. I really don't know how much more of this can i take. I pray everyday about this..yesterday, at 1am, he started his nonsense, and i mean he started, not ending. So i really couldn't take it and called the reception to complain. When the reception came up to his door, i heard him say " did she complain?" very unhappily. I suddenly felt intense fear. Fear for my security...and i immediately regretted complaining. Because the noise did not go down one bit after the reception told him. Every minute i worry when is he coming back, when is he having his friends over, is he having a grudge against me?, would he now make more noise to take'revenge'? argh....i really need God !!!! I want to hear from Him. I want Him to direct my paths, should i change room ? or should i just write a card to him and try to make things right? Which is the right way ? I am confused. And i know only God can show me the way to take...Why should i be afraid ? God is with me and i will not fear evil. I will not fear the terrors of the night. I will not be afraid of what my neighbour would do to me....Charmaine told me how she had to change rooms before coz of all the noise from here and there, this place looks good, but the walls are really very thin. We can hear activity from side to side and upstairs and outside. To stay here short term its ok. but in the long term, it can really affect our lives. To make things worse, the management here is so so so so so so so bad. The person taking care of us students just resigned. Her position had been taken by so many different people before. Now what does that show? Charm suggested that i should complain to the GM. Coz it seems only he takes things more seriously. I don't wanna make things difficult ...argh...God open up the doors for me to take and close all the ones i shouldn't.
wives submit to your husbands
Last night me and dear trist were on the phone...He is very into the elections now and had been telling me stuff tt its not good to say here considering the ' freedom' of speech we enjoy ..well..the main thing is he casually said he wants to be in the opposition team next time. (opps ..can i say that?? ) then i told him don't even think about it..haha so did his mom lor. Then he quoted the bible " wife submit to your husband" , well i was pretty agitated that he used the bible to say that if he chooses to go into politics, then i should just follow and agree with him and in loving kindness hope he change his mind or sth. haha ..well...
today in quiet time..i went to look at the verses..i couldnt find it at first but God is good..i chanced upon it while reading sth else...
Ephesians 5:22-33
Wives submit to your own husbands, as to the Lord. For the husband is head of the wife, as also Christ is head of the church; and He is the savior of the body. Therefore just as the church is subject to Christ, so let the wives be to their own husbands in everything. Husbands, love your wives just as Christ also loved the church and gave Himself for her that He might present Himself for her and that He might present her to Himself a glorious church, not having spot or wrinkle or any such thing, but that she should be holy and without blemish. So husbands ought to love theur own wives as their own bodies; he who loves his wife loves himself. For no one ever hated his own flesh, but nourishes and cherishes it, just as the Lord does the church. For we are members of his body, of his flesh and of his bones. "For this reason a man shall leave his father and mother and be joined to his wife, and the two shall become one flesh." This is a great mystery, but i speak concerning Christ and the church. Nevertheless, let each one of you in particular so love his wife as himself, and let the wife see that she respects her husband. the word of God is a powerful weapon, I have learnt over the years that if everybody submit to the word of God, then all of our lives would be so much better, so much smoother. Modernization, new inventions, new ideas, feminism etc all does not shape who we are. We are what Christ says we are. And truly what tristan said reminded me of how i should behave as a woman or as a wife to him next time. He didnt just mention about the submission, he also did mention about how husbands should love their wives just as Christ also loved the Church...:) So conclusion of my unstructured entry..1) Respect my husband just as he is placed as the head of me as Christ is the head of the church
2) Subject to my husband in everything just as the church is subject in christ.
3) I should become holy and without blemish
Me and tristan dear...the man who is a blessing from God, who Christ have always use to shape and mould me to be a better person ...I love you lotz dear...with all of my heart....
parents in melbourne 1
vietnamese noodles at mekong...
Yummy dimsum at dragonboat
restaurant along chinatown. Better
than crystal jade!
shopping for fruits in queen victoria mkt
nuts and honey galore at QV mkt.
our service apartment...sitting on a
pull out bed...
church camp at dandenong...
one of our breakfast
items..so cool rite?
charmaine,kunshan
me, florence, Jane,
Annie posing by flo's
cake....
me and annie ...
beautiful butterfly cake ! Shes gonna make it
for a little girl's birthday ....
bbq-ing with a twig...haha
aussie campfire culture...
me and charmaine
holding our 'cooked'
product
kunshan, florence,
wendy and I.....
feeling faint
feeling faint today....
charmaine and i attempted to cook japanese rice which turned out really sticky.haha now we know why the instructions recommended that we should add vinegar to the rice coz the rice is tasteless w/o it! haha ..i bet some people don't know that our normal jasmine rice actually had some taste. You would after eating plain japanese rice. hehe..i had to add soya sauce into it. I realised she's a very meticulous girl. She cared for her pots and pans like they are her babies coz she wanted to make sure none of the non stick material didnt come off. I always tot we could just wash rice in the rice pot coz my family did that all our lives. Today i learnt that the rice would actually slowly scrap the non stick material off. Cool .....a new thing learnt everyday ....We cooked teriyaki chicken and egg with vegetable. Charmaine was wondering how come i so slow (in pouring out the food from the pan etc) ..i realised i was feeling hypoglycaemic. Then she was really nice..she offered her essence of chicken (which i strongly refused coz it was expensive so i felt she should keep it for herself and i also dun particularly like it) then she cooked some sort of
herbal drink for me. So nice...its really nice to have
friends who care ...
Im still feeling light headed and hungry..when i just had dinner 1hr ago. My body is nutz....
just feeling bored so upload photos ! hee
such a cute dog! I want this dog when i have my own home next time ...
me and my cherry dessert...any guesses why im putting on the pounds??! haha
taken at a super cool dessert shop along lygon st..called brunnetti. These are whole cakes. They also have shelves of the mini versions and cookies..Love the place!
beer bottle holder..hehe so cute hor..at queen victoria market ..
the day i cut my head ..sob
last night was the worse for me since i was in melbourne, in an innocent attempt to readjust my sleeping position, i hit my head against the edge of the table and sustained a 1cm cut. Not a very big cut but the pain was so bad. I didnt wake up to see it as i tot its probably just a blue black ..i tot the water i felt was probably the tears from the pain.but i decided to just wake up and take a look on instinct. Then i saw the bleeding cut. Oh manz. it was so so painful. Did you know that our face has one of the most nerve endings in our entire body? Well that probably explains why a small cut can cause such intense pain. anyway that is not the scariest bit. After seeing the cut, i broke out into cold sweat and started to feel nauseous and had intense stomach pains. I started to think thoughts like 'oh no the cut probably damaged an impt nerve thats why i feel sick and now im gonna collapse and die' ' i better run to my neighbour and tell them to call an ambulance before i collapse in my room and nobody knows ..' ' so this is how my patients feel..' ' im never gonna eat my whole life..the feeling of nausea is too horrid ' ..so many thoughts were running through my head..hahaha all the silly silly thoughts. probably an occupational hazard.
I realised from this episode that i am really quite blessed in terms of health. I have never been hospitalized nor have had any major ailments. The worse i can think of is a severe bout of food poisoning which caused vomit to come out of my nostrils, mouth and anus. hahahaa.
anyway i called tristan during that episode. it was about 2am and boy was i glad that he picked up. One thing i am assured of , i could almost always find him when i need to no matter what time of the day. Woken up in the middle of his sleep, he spoke like the most assuring daddy ..i felt so much better after that. no wonder they say most illnesses are psychosomatic. I realised how important emotional and psychological support is during times of distress. The most amazing thing is he told he that he couldn't sleep that night and was wondering why. Then he said its probably coz he knew sth was gonna happen to me .wahah telepathy...
All that nausea and abdominal pain was probably not directly linked to my head injury..its probably part of an anxiety attack. The feeling that i am all alone in my room with this bleeding wound in the middle of the night was scary...hee im ok now. the clotted wound is still painful but im ok..its good to be in distress once in a while, then we realise how blessed we really are...
the day i realise i am becoming fat
haha wat a title huh...well i am putting on weight pretty fast here lar. sedentary lifestyle, the pantry right next to my stressful study table..u noe ..hahahaha. but i am still not gonna exercise or eat less..too much work. i rather sit and stone for my next assignment or talk to my friends or go out. life is too short to worry about weight. just dun get obese and have to go on biggest loser can liao...
currently i am reading a book from charmaine called 'every woman's battle' ..it talks about a woman's sexual integrity. We are not just talking about the physical sense, for women alot stems from the emotional aspects. here is an excerpt from the book ..
' men and women struggle in different ways when it comes to sexual integrity. While a man's battle begins with what he takes through his eyes, a woman's begins with her heart and her thoughts. A man must guard his eyes to maintain sexual integrity, but because God made women emotionally and mentally stimulated, we must closely guard our hearts and minds as well as our bodies if we want to experience God's plan for sexual and emotional fulfillment. A woman's battle is for sexual and emotional integrity '
Cool huh..this book by Shannon Ethridge has gaven me many new insights into being a woman. many examples are quoted in the book from real people ..people who compare their spouses with other men, women who have affairs with other men in their MIND AND THOUGHTS . wow i really got a shocker there. I never knew affairs can be of the mind...i bet many women out there did not know too...theres always new things to learn ...
first entry in Melbourne!!!
my parents w me in melbourne..sitting on the giant coin purse.haha..
Hello guys ! its been such a long long long time since i blogged. I was very touched to learn from sis klessis that she still always click into my blog to check for any new entry. Hee i promised her i would write again. Sis klessis just gave birth! I havent seen here baby joey yet but i am so so sure shes gonna be a very pretty and adorable baby just like her mommmy. I miss u sis klessis. Miss talking to u on MSN. Must be so busy taking care of little joey .Hee ..I havent seen her picture !!!! Must show me!
This week is easter holiday break. My parents came to visit me in melbourne and i brought them around. Went to many places which i myself have not gone. (Been to the city less than 5 times before they came because of laziness and school work haha)
Anyway, now i feel confident to bring people around the good places in melbourne liao> St Kilda, Queen Victoria Market, Crown Casino and entertainment and lots of italian food and dessert at lygon st and city shopping... Had alot of seafood as my parents believed the seafood is fresher over here. And hence i also had a breakout of itchy skin , rashes and eczema . I itched so so so badly that i was bending down to scratch even while a salesgirl was talking to me. Oh man i wish there was a photo of that haha. I was a drug addict for a while ..being reliant on anti histamines to take away the itch ( which it didnt realli do except make me sleepy..does tt sound like an addict or wat ?!) anyway the itch is not totally linked to seafood, it could have been due to the dry weather ( melbourne's weather is so unpredictable, 4 seasons in a day..or even 2 seasons concurrently at the same time > hot like fire sun plus freezing cold wind) or it could be due to the large intakes of chocolate (it used to be causing me eczema in spore n the doctor told me to stop taking chocolates and nuts for a few months which caused the eczema to go away ) ...well..being a student under stress , chocolates r one of my escape from the craziness. besides tv , friends and church.
Oh yah i got a new camera from tristan ! I lost my old one which was also given by him when i went for a tour in phillip island. so sad..i cried over my lost camera like i lost a loved one. Tristan wrote in his letter
" i really debated vert long as to buy it or not...then i decided that if there are things i cant give you, for example a hug when you are cold ....then i will give you the things i can, if i means i can see your smile all the way in singapore.."
I was realli touched. Because i know although he could afford it, he is a person who is by nature thrifty. He goes from shop to shop just to find the lowest price for the same thing ..i remember how we went to sim lim square to find a router ..n we walked so many stores n they all had the same price ! But he still wont give up ..in the end we realli found one with a lower price. haha .(reminds me of myself when i visit different supermarkets or market stores when doing my weekly grocery shopping)
so for him to spend another few hundred buying a 2nd camera for me, it must be a big sacrifice. Arghh..i am one careless person...
u noe i got lots to say ..since ive been here for quite some time ...but i gota go now..hahahah next time then say..
anyway to my friends in spore im doing great! surprisingly not home sick ..but of coz missing everybody and everything in singapore !!! hahaahha...
