sat breakfast at farrells vic park
the breakfast group haha gary, jack, adeline, sarah, me, naryn and jon
pancakes w berry sauce and maple syrup ! looks better than it tastes thou.
cuppuccino ! look at the foam! (envy me aaron *evil laughter*)
me and naryn dear
poached eggs (which i tink look like bursting eyeballs) on top of salmon on muffins
Had breakfast today at Farrells vic park. NAryn heard tt breakfast was good and even had to make a reservation . When we arrived, the place was full of people. However, the food was disappointing. I was disappointed with my pancakes ! I prefer fast eddys pancakes..haha.... well but it was nice to have breakfast together on a saturday. I am so happy i can upload photos now! for a while, my internet cant allow me to upload photos onto this blog hence there hasnt been any photos on this blog for a while ..hehehe ....really cant stand my hair now. seems so lopsided. One side super short and one side long. meant to look like victoria beckham style and i hate it ..hahaha prob coz i dun have a face like victoria beckham to carry it off ....hahaha ....
2am w the urge to blog hahah
today i did something different...
haha i went to watch a movie by myself !
It was great ! I wanted to watch STARDUST when i saw its trailer a few weeks back and realising i still had a 10 dollar ticket for a show , i went today after dropping off 2 parcels as birthday gifts for 2 friends...the postage cost like 1/4 of the gift! hahaha ...
Bought a combo of regular popcorn and a drink in a nice plastic cartoon cup, i rushed into the cinema as the movie had started. i hardly could see a thing as it was pitch black and the fact tt the scene then was a dark scene didnt help much. I was so afraid i will sit on someone coz i cldnt even see the sits nor the people and had to feel around like a blind woman. haha ...
the show was good! i think i dun have high expectations for movies generally. But there was a shocker in the movie which i hadnt known from the trailer. The name of the lead man is ..........TRISTAN . What is with this name these days. It was hardly heard around 1 yr ago..then suddenly 2 blockbusters have their lead man name tristan. duh....tristan wld surely catch this show if he knows this. When i told Lisa, she was saying how maybe God wants me to reach a pt in time when i dun get uncomfortable hearing this name. hahaha ....
anyway i love such shows. SHows with a little fairy tale and wonderland and magic in them. Clare danes was really pretty in the show. She was the star literally hahaha...watch it to know what i mean....
these days have been working on my thesis. Writing the parts tt do not really require the data from the data collection. Realised how hard and mentally tiring it is. SO much reading and research to do and always having the fear of going out of pt. My writing has never been good and this time with 15000-25000 words to write, the risk of going out of pt is super high. I had to keep reminding myself of my research title but yet i still get confused if this is the same as tt meaning etc.
Right now there is a possibility of me being delayed. I have not gotten permission to collect data. As usual nick my supervisor is passive. And i am pretending to be patiently waiting for permission. According to the honours program, i am supp to hand in my thesis by 31 oct which is next mth. With data not collected yet and the fact tt the data collection process is not usually smooth going, i am pretty sure my deadline needs to be extended. Dr PAt says tt the other 2 honours student r extending their deadline till next feb. But i cant afford to extend till then becoz i am not local, i got visa restrictions plus i am on a scholarship ! Dr Pat says tt i prob can do my writing back in spore if its really delayed. Which may be a good idea.
Right now, i am just doing what i can, doing my best...no more doing casual or gym, just writing and research !!!!! FOCUS is the priority now. WORK HARD and enjoy the blessings of not having the stresses of work or parenting hahahah . I can complain so much abt being bored but at the end of the day , there r little blessings like i can sleep anytime i want, wake up anytime i want now...once i start work...i was telling aaron tt i have to wake up 4plus in the morning for AM shifts ....aaron works from 8am to 7pm ....i am glad i dun need to slog like tt for now...woohoooo hahaha
royal perth hospital
last night was a night of severe pains and miracles.
I went to bed at
12am with feelings of nauseousness
At
3am i awoke from severe pain which intensified on and off. In the beginning it was so painful tt i tot i was going to die. I even wanted to call an ambulance.
As a nurse, i was telling myself, it is just pain, just tolerate it. the doctors cant do much for abdominal pains anyway, the emergency dept is too expensive and i noe the ones in spore make u wait forever esp w abd pain its low priority no matter how pain it is.Is it a temporary pain or is some bug really eating up my intestines? The pain was so bad tt the christian aspect of me was telling God "
god i will never anyhow eat again le. Just take away the pain. Please God i will take care of my diet from now on, please help me ..." i had never had such intense pains before. Its indescribable. I couldnt even stand or come out of bed without difficulty and had to crawl to the toilet. And since i had experiences of food poisoning before, i knew this wasnt food poisoning. I dunno how i did it, but i crawled to my laptop and
googled for the symptoms of indigestion and appendicitis. Learnt before but forgot le haha. the symptoms matched indigestion more than appendicities to my relief. But the pain was too intense for it to be indigestion i was thinking. hahaah so funny..in the midst of pain, can still google search. issit such a nurse thing to do or does it just make me wierd haha ..hahah..makes me laugh thinking of it.... I didnt wake my housemates coz i didnt wanna make them worry unless if one of them is a doctor than of coz wake up la... hahah
the pain continued on and off till
430am until i cannot tolerate anymore than i called my friend to bring me to the hospital. On the way to the hospital, there wasnt anymore pain....but my friend still insisted we go ahead since this other friend came all the way to pick me up le. At the royal perth emergency dept, i was registered and i felt quite silly. Coz i didnt have the pains anymore.....Praise the Lord. In the end , i opted not to see the doctor le. If the pains come back , i will just go see the GP.
Its a miracle. coz after tt i was still able to eat bacon, eggs etc for breakfast. I felt so bad for troubling two friends for what seems like nothing. But honestly i comtemplated v long before deciding to go . I guess if i hadnt contemplated so long, i might be at emergency requiring some drug to take the pain away.
This marks my first time going to the emergency department in the middle of the night. Come to think of it, i am a v healthy person. Never had any hospital history or history of fainting and i hardly fall ill.. sometimes the silly side of me
wanna get some kind of sickness and suffer thru it and then get well so that i can understand how sick people really feel. No matter how in my position as a nurse tt i try to empathize with my patients conditions and feelings, my lack of similar experiences means i can sometimes take their pain or feelings lightly. Pain is something very subjective. No one can feel another person's pain. Prob from the increase in heart rate, blood pressure, perspiration, paleness etc you can tell the suffering the person is getting from the pain, but other than tt there is nothing to indicate for sure. Indians have a low low threshold of pain and screams before u touch them. The thought of u touching them is painful enough. Chinese generally do not express their pain as much as the pain they r going thru. ' ai4 mian4 zi3'. hahaha ..just speaking from experience and from school haha...they teach this in sch...=p
anyway thank God for taking away the pain, for turning my condition 360 degrees around as if it never happened and for sending me 2 angels
Janica and Kenny who wake up at 4plus in the morning to send me to royal perth. I still have a little pain on and off. but its like 1 on a scale of 10 ..so its nothing...i can still eat as usual and work as usual. Just tt i am staying home. Not going out or exert myself physically in any way.
Being overseas, away from family is really being independent. I struggle alot and during times like this, it is when i realise how impt friends are and i also realise how in Singapore since family is always all around, it is so easy for me to take little things for granted.
since i started writing this entry, i tink i had released gas more than 15times le. Am i being too full of air? wahahha..ok shldnt be so explicit in a public blog...
finding hope and joy in frustration
today i am quite frustrated. In fact i am very frustrated and unhappy with my supervisor Nick. He hasnt sought permission for me to collect my data from the 10 general practice clinics. As if its not bad enough that he contributed less than 1% to my proposal... i can go on and on about him..but God reminded me....to find joy in tribulations. I was just sharing w my friend and housemate Jolin how purposeless i feel. Like nothing to work towards. Feel lost and alone.
God just reminded me in his word that all my days on earth is purposeful even when i cannot see how in psalm 23. God never fails. His goodness and mercy are mine even in times when i feel alone. I really want to find Joy in this difficult circumstances. To not let it overcome me and make me a bitter and unforgiving person towards Nick. My sistor suggested for me to write a
formal letter of complain to the sch. But i still feel things will work out. I may not recommend Curtin to other people anymore, but i wld feel bad writing a letter of complain coz i do like my director of honours study. Honestly, my supervisor is really alot of Sh*t. His co worker even shared w me in confidence how if she waited for him to do anything, it will never be done. I wish i didnt have to wait for him lor. I wish i had the authority to seek permission myself and get my research work going. I prayed that
by the end of this week a miracle will happen and Nick wld seriously sought permission and not just say he will and by this week we will get permission so i can start collecting data next week. Please keep me in prayers....I am sure that i chose to do acute care and hence get put under Nick (who is new to supervising also plus lazy and slack) for a purpose. I want to believe there is a purpose in this and at the end of the day i want to believe i can still get a breakthrough result! Becoz i trust God will help me.
someone who i want to thank...
Jolin...
thank you for your listening ear, your responses, your love, your concern, your head massage and for plucking my white hairs and listening to my corny stupid jokes and hearing my super loud laughter like a mad woman. hahaah...thank you for keeping your door open when i feel alone. thank you for believing i can do it when i stop believing. hugzzzz....love ya!! God provides all the time....
no reservations
judging from my title...this entry is mainly about the movie
NO RESERVATIONS starring Catherine Zeta Jones and Aaron Eckhart. I never liked Catherine Zeta Jones coz i think she is very yaya papaya hahah and of coz tts due to all the bad stuff i read abt her tantrums . hee...but then this show is a good show! I wonder if Singapore is showing it already. Australia can be slower or faster but generally slower in releasing movies than Singapore.
Life isnt always made to order...this line follows in small fonts after the title in the movie's poster. Catherine Zeta Jones acts as a
master chef Kate Armstrong who runs the kitchen in a upscale restaurant. She is of a
perfectionist nature and all her dishes are prepared to perfection. Now tt i tink of it, it kind of reminds me of myself and girls in general (becoz i tink now girls are mostly perfectionistic, supported by facts and statistics..Ive been reading! hehe) As i am not a natural writer, i shall type what the movie brochure says abt the show..
' kate's perfectionist nature is put to the test when a brash new sous chef joins her staff, the high spirited and free wheeling Nick Palmer. A rising culinary star himself, Nick favours opera while working and loves to make everyone around him laugh. His casual approach to both life and cuisine couldn't be more different than Kate's, yet the chemistry between them is undeniable...as is the discord..."hahah Nick act reminds me of tristan. Free spirited and having a casual approach to life, loves to make everyone around him laugh....and Kate is quite like myself. A perfectionist. I realise in a r/s there has to be someone more free spirited. Less serious. With A, i tink i am less serious, though by nature i still think alot. But i tell more stupid jokes and when i first knew him, i was a very bouncy and happy kind of character. Always smiling, always believing God will work things out, give him hair washes salon style w massages on the head and all.....A keeps me grounded. I think people may think i am a serious and grounded person. Do You? i dunno. But maybe the fact tt i think alot may give people tt impression. But in actual fact, i am a very airy person. I have alot of idealizations and dreams and tend to have the idea tt nothing is too hard....I strongly respect men who are hard working.
Whatever situation or background, being willing to work hard and earn a living for oneself and one's loved ones is the most important trait i think my partner should have after the fact tt he must be someone who loves God. A is exactly such a person. Practical and down to earth...
Life really isnt always made to order, we cant say we want our life to be a certain way and it will be tt way...a little bump here and there may change the course tt we take....it may cause us to overturn, crash and die or it may just cause us to stumble a little but still be able to continue the jouney.....adaptability and being able to accept things and people and myself for not being perfect is impt ......thank God for a good sunday, a meaningful talk and prayer with mingchoon in church, a good shopping spree w Kylie and red rooster burger dinner and a good talk with my super sis eliza and for A who is always telling me the right things. Hold no reservations on giving thanks ...hahah ....
