an interview for Dr Tay Eng Soon Gold medallion award
Yesterday when i recieved the call from my teacher informing me of the interview for the Dr Tay Eng Soon award. I felt both joy and fear .Joy that i am chosen to represent my nursing cohort to compete with 2 other top students from their cohort for this Gold medal and fear of failure. But thank you Lord for reminding me of your promises. Your word in
hebrews 10:35 > therefore do not cast away your confidence which has great reward" kept ringing in my ears from yesterday till this morning ! thats why i totally love the word of God, it always gets me past any situation!
Im also very touched by my
dear Sistor eliza! We were discussing about how to answer certain common questions for the interview. Thou its her time to relax and watch tv, she still
sacrificed it to help me. I feel that she's
always with me in my joy and stresses. She also quickly dug up a very
nice suit for me to wear to the interview and even found a pair of black shoes (which i tot i lost long time ago ) for me to go with the suit ! I looked so smart this morning that my director was impressed and happy. This is sth i learnt from my sistor.
To dress appropriately as a form of respect to the people we are meeting. When
tristan came to my home at 10plus,
Eliza also made sure the food was warmed up for him to eat and even asked my aunt to cook an egg for him. ( she knew he hadnt ate) .
We both agreeed that she is very nice ! Im very thankful for her (and also thankful her nagging has decreased alot ...izzit coz im neater areidi?!! hahaahah)
I prayed to God for
wisdom and discernment. Wisdom to say the right things and discernment to know what each interviewer expects from me when they ask provoking questions. And sure enough, the panel of interviewers (registrars, professors, directors ) asked many many questions that really needed me to think and dig and speak right from my heart ! I felt the holy spirit guiding me in my answers such that i was able to speak with boldness, confidence, assertiveness and full of passion. I never spoke with so much passion before, not even for my overseas scholarship interview. For a few
'dangerous' questions, i felt the Holy spirit prompting me to answer them in a certain way! Its so amazing because in the split seconds of comtemplating how to answer, the right words just flowed out from my mouth. And i knew they were the words the interviewers wanted to hear because i could see the delight and smiles from them. One of them even muttered " intelligent answer " . Before i left the room, one of them said "
you know its going to be very very hard for us to choose 1 from the 3 of you. Because all of you are very good" ..
I replied and said that i know. In my heart i may not know if i really got the award but one thing i do is tt
i have given it my all and fought a good fight. I have no regrets because whatever it is,
I would love Nursing all the same and I know God has a great destiny for me.
me!
God sees the deeper issues of our hearts
i just read a friend's blog entry for yesterday and it really pains my heart to hear her feel the way she do. I almost cried.Because i have been thru similar circumstances before. A verse came into my mind in
Eph 3:13 Therefore i ask that you do not lose heart at my tribulations for you, which is your glory... Acts 14:22 > ....."we must through many tribulations enter the kingdom of God" when i was going through the situation, these verses serve as reminders to me that i do not lost heart and that i must pesevere and have patience. Because in times of distress and in times of persecution or tribulation, we are still to be ministers of God. Our God is a rewarder of those who diligently kept the faith. My loved ones can help me out when i am weary but i noe tt only God can truly lift me up from any problem. God sees the deeper issues of our hearts. If God can help those who are paralysed and beyond Hope according to man, then He will surely help you. Abide in Him and He will abide in you...God i pray that you will be in the centre of all my decisions and plans. Let me not live for the moment, let me not live or do things for the words of praises from people, let me not live or do things for my own selfish ambitions. But determine the steps that i should take and the plans that i should make. Help me Lord to discern the voice of the spirit from my own thoughts. I hear your angel speaking to me Lord, but is it really? Help me Lord to know the difference.
thank you for all that you have given me Lord. Thank you in advance for all the things you are planning for me.
We are not saved by good works but we can encourage people to get saved through our good works
its a monday holiday !! doesnt feel like a holiday to me as im already on one..but im sure to many working adults its " thank God i dun have to wake up early "
I got an early morning shock. My mom was dressed beautifully this morning and i asked her where she was going. She said shes attending a
church wedding. wow, tts a shocker, coz as far as im aware, my mom hasnt stepped into a church since i was in primary school. She was a christian for a few years when i was younger but apparently she went thru a rough patch and nobody helped. tt bad experience stuck in her mind since then.Maybe thats why my mom is a person who believes in herself alot, because circumstances have hardened her. In
mark 3:5 > And when he had looked at them with anger, being grieved by the hardness of their hearts, He said to the man, " stretch out your hand." And he stretched it out, and his hand was restored as whole as the other. From this verse, i learnt that once a person has decided against something, it would be very difficult to change his/her opinion about it. In this verse, Jesus had to restore the man's hand before the people believed. I may not be able to perform such a miracle, but i know what i can do.Matthew 5:16 > Let your light so shine before men, that they may see your good works and glorify your Father in heaven. Eph 2:10 > For we are God's workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.
its gonna be a good relaxing day today! Would be going to the beach with tris later. Time to experience the nature that God has made. The sounds of the sea, birds. The feel of the wind across my face. Nature here i come!
living life to our fullest ?!
dear blog..
haha..the past 2 weeks have seemed busy so i havent been writing. So many things have seemed to changed (for the better) in such a short time! Im elated for my dear tristan !I'm just so so happy for him. I just read xiaoxuan's latest blog entry. She wrote about her salvation a few years ago and it reminded me about my own salvation and how time really flies. Everyday is a precious day and i am guilty of not seeing it that way all the time.
Time and tide waits for no man. It strucked me a question
" Am i living my life to the fullest? "
Isiah 7:13 : Then isaiah said , " hear now, you house of david! is it not enough to try the patience of men? will you try the patience of my God also?"
i have made the decision not to try the patience of God anymore. I want to obey the calling that God has made in my life. And I know through faithful prayer and reading of His word, I would live my life to the fullest that God has intended.
Sometimes i feel quite sad for some people around me who do not know God. I know that after i know God & Jesus, my life has been so positively different. Non christians can attribute all the blessings that came after i accepted Christ like my good grades, opportunities given to me, good partner and sincere friends to pure conincidences or luck. But i noe they are not so. Deuteronomy 28:2 : All these blessings will come upon you and accompany you if you obey the LORD you God. I know i still have character flaws but its a 'holy moly' mentality to think that christians are perfect people. If we are perfect, then we do not need God. If i am perfect then i can be God. Genesis 6:12 : ...For all the people on earth had corrupted their ways.
To my sistors and brother who may read this, i know im not perfect but you noe i am better and happier and calmer in face of problems then ever before. I love you all with all of my heart. And you all are always in my prayers :)
i cant sleep ..
im up early today. Haha not as early as when im working at 7am , but early in view of the fact tt im not working ! im still sleepy and my eyes tired but i cant seem to sleep in! always hearing people complaining about not being able to fall asleep..and here i am complaining about not being able to sleep more..my body is orientated to waking up for work.
Occupational hazard. Thats the one thing tt i dislike about nursing ..its shift work...it can really disorientate the body clock ...
Talking about nursing..i have been crossroads. If i didnt get the scholarship, i would start working. But im not sure where to work for. Im really praying for God to show me where is the place that i can grow and mature in. ahaha the perfect place would be a place where theres no gossiping or backstabing and with non believers whom i can reach out to and believers who i can talk heart to heart with. But i know that no place is perfect, God did not give us a perfect world.He did but men chose to sin (think evil thoughts, commit adultery, gossip, slander, murder, put other Gods above Him, promiscuity etc) and since then we are in this vicious cycle of sinning and the only way to break out of it ( know what is wrong and turn away from it ie repent) is to confess our sins to Him and believe that Jesus Christ is our savior. Who else can be our God except the One who created everything natural we have here in 7 days.
okie i tend to go off point ..haha i was talking bout my work..pray for God to open up doors for me in the right place ! Raffles hospital vs NUH .
my mom going for surgery
my mom has been having frequent intense gastric pains recently, so she decided instead of waiting a mth for the appt at NUH, she wld pay 5 times the amt for one with a private hospital. Expensive as it may be, it was well worth it coz the gastroscopy and colonoscopy showed positive results. A benign (non cancerous) mass of cells. Waited any longer and there may be complications. For the first time since i am born, i am about to witness my mom having to go for a surgery. She have to have her gall bladder ( produces bile to digest fats into fatty acids and is near the liver) removed. It wont be a life threatening or highly risky op but everybody noes tt every operation carries with it the risk of complications. I am worried that the op date will be during the time im in China. Ive booked the ticket and yet i wld really want to stay here to take care of her esp since im the one who knoes best about post operative care in the family. Seems like the past 6 weeks working in a surgical ward is going to be put into good use. I hope it doesnt clash . And im sure that even if it does, God is faithful to see my mom through and heal her.
tmr we r going to celebrate mother's day with her at straits kitchen. Me and tris were invited to bro edwin's and martin's holy matrimony which is abt the same timing tmr lunch time! so the original idea was tt tristan wld attend martin's (as he's part of the entourage) and i wld attend edwin's. But after learning about my mom's condition, i decided that nothin can be more impt than showing my close one that i really care and that she is not alone. Though i got many sistors and bros to accompany her, i feel that my presence wld make a difference as she can see that i put her above something else. I love nursing so much also becoz the knowledge i have really can help many people around me! Whailin recently have a back problem coupled with her long time gastric problem( many girls have gastric problems.tsktsk..).Im gonna bring her to see my GP this sunday! Hes the most sincere and knowlegeable doctor i ever met so i figured i he would give whailin good advice (as to whether to go for an xray and scope referal etc). I feel more connected to a few people in the cell group recently. Isabel, meiling and whailin. I am very thankful becoz in a united cell group, there is greater power and desire to touched each other's lives. No man is an island. A relationship with God alone is not enough.God also wants us to have good relationships with others esp our own cell group members and leader...
now for some more happy news ! i just got an email saying that MOH have shortlisted me for an interview for the MOH health science scholarship!
a day with LISA!
its a sunday! and im so happy !! Just feel more blessed than usual and blessed with the good company of my very very good fren Lisa. I remember it had been quite difficult to bring her to church 3yrs ago but she came and thank God stayed and is even a cell grp helper...heheh like sis kless said, i brought many frens but many didnt stay on ...but Lisa staying represents like a 100 frens to me liao hahahah ...okok..i know tt doesnt discount the rest who didnt..be more faithful !
we went esplanade to makan sushi today ...quite good, portions r big and variety is different from sakae ! then we head to haagen daz to eat ice cream ! I had baileys( my fav for now hahaha ) and she had macademia nut ! such a macademia nut addict hahah ...had a good talk there...i always love to be in her company ...she's one of those frens whom even when we both dun talk i wont feel awkward or wierd. thou really most of the time we r talking hahah ...We both r always thinking thru things in our heads...really no man is an island ! SiS ruth reminded me of that when i overheard her on the phone yesterday! hah..she said ' we shldnt just have a relationship with God only, but we should also have relationships and fellowships with others ! " and i cant agree more. Im really thankful for wonderful loving frens and my family around me. Lisa and i also saw fireworks !!! really such a conincidence coz we were just walking out of the tunnel when the fireworks started ! so beautiful ! We both love the one where it seems like sprinkles of golden dust falling down !
rojak: a day of mixed thoughts
its saturday !! today has been a fulfilling day of rest ....
woke up early and gave my little nephew some coaching on his maths, english and spelling then tris and i went to clementi market to eat the popular newton niang dou fu ..realli shiok ! then we went wet market buy the ingredients for the fujian mian for his aunt to cook for cg refreshments ! hahah i definately need to go to the wet market more often ...losing touch >> meaning i try to avoid the puddles of water which is such a common thing in wet markets and felt groused when the uncle who took the sotongs w his hands used the same hands to gimme my change..hahaha ! absolutely behaving like a person who cant take hardship ..haiz...cant be so gu niang ..hehe..i used to go often with my mom and help her carry bags of chicken etc but as i grew up the visits with her became less....looks like i better help her more now....
in the afternoon went to my fren's home to discuss our china trip with a few other frens...hehe we ended up talking all bout nursing plus the china trip at the end. Really very thankful that i can go on this trip with them ! my good fren geokchoo whos realli like a mom to me is really into making sure we go to all the fun places. plus my china frens r making sure we get to eat all the good food plus eat the china original fish balls and dumplings !! Im so excited !!
Cell group was really a touch from heaven ! and i really do agree tt God is always around but whether we feel his presence or not is really a matter of choice. I remember when i was a younger christian, i have the tendency to let my mind wander during worship so i only felt the presence of God on very few occasions. Now as times go by , i really come to realize how impt it is for me to focus on God during praise and worship becoz only then we r allowing God to enter into our hearts and speak to us. I really love the presence of God ! Its the only time when i feel totally vulnerable , the only time when i feel totally released from all my daily burdens of the world, the only time when i can let my tears fall and yet its ok...
