I love the Lord so so much
SIS kless thank you so much for your prayer. I know i can always count on you ..so far yet so near in my heart....well God indeed answers our prayers.
Yesterday i prayed to God about the situation again. I remember between 4-5pm, i could feel the devil attacking me ! I was at my study table, on the left of my room, the lady was quarelling loudly on the phone and on my right, the guy was as usual starting to play his game with his friend, banging on the walls more than ever. Then here i was with a pile of work.. arghhhh! It all seems small when you hear it, tristan said " its all the little things mah " but to me at that time, i just felt so suppressed by everything. Small rocks make a mountain right? I needed to GET OUT !!!! I decided i needed to let it all out so i headed for the gym for a good workout.
You know God IS EVERYWHERE! As i was on the treadmill, so many thoughts were running through my head to the point that i didnt even focus on whatever i was physically doing. I was having a MENTAL EXERCISE. I blasted hillsongs from my ipod and focused on Jesus and spoke to Him again about everything. I asked Jesus " pls tell me what to do. Shall i move rooms or shall i stay...if you want me to move room, pls let me meet somebody i know when im on the way back to my room. If you think i should not move, let me meet my neighbour " or Jesus, just do it anyway you want. Just tell me what to do. I don't want to decide on my own."
SO there i was perspiring like a dog and talking to God. And no matter how smelly, ugly, Jesus is always listening.
On the way back to my room, I SAW MY NEIGHBOUR !!!!! Nobody can say its a coincidence ....He was standing there w a group of people and they all turned to look at me when i walked up. How about that !!!!
Immediately i knew what i needed to do. I walked straight into my room and started to write a letter ( about having no hard feelings and explaining the situation and why i complained and saying sorry etc) to my neighbour and slotted it under his door and i just felt so peaceful after that. Like a rock has been lifted up from my shoulders.
Since yesterday , my neighbour hasnt disturbed me in any way. Even if he starts doing it again, i wont complain anymore. I would pray . God is bigger than any receptionist !! God's strength is much bigger than what i can do.
I love to be in melbourne! I feel that I have started to totally rely on God like never before. I have never felt so strongly for God in Singapore. I mean praise the Lord for City Harvest Church and everybody i know in SIngapore. But praise God too that i am here. I am here for a purpose and a time such as this. I am here not at a cost, i am here because God wants me to get stronger for Him. In my little sanctuary, i see and feel God. I cry even during online services. God's power extends across all nations, all methods, all people. Just this episode with my neighbour, God is trying to tell me sth. LEAN ONTO ME AND I SHALL LEAN ONTO YOU. DONT TURN YOUR BACK ON ME AND RELY ON YOUR OWN STRENGTH. HAVE FAITH, TRUST, REMEMBER MY GOODNESS, REMEMBER HOW YOU FIRST LOVED ME.
God have to take care of so many people. but He remembers each of us. When we cry out to Him with all of our hearts, He will come....Anybody can say anything, the Da Vinci Code can challenge the basic foundations of christianity, but nobody, and NOBODY can ever challenge the fact that God is real, God is Good. So what if we don't physically see Him? His goodness need not be seen in the physical realm. What is not in the physical cannot be pushed. So our faith being the substance of things unseen cannot be pushed nor wavered. It is in our hearts and our experiences tell us how real God is.
posted by Ng Yashi @ 2:49 pm
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