Yashitori babe...verbal diarrhea in Australia (melbourne & perth)

the day i cut my head ..sob

last night was the worse for me since i was in melbourne, in an innocent attempt to readjust my sleeping position, i hit my head against the edge of the table and sustained a 1cm cut. Not a very big cut but the pain was so bad. I didnt wake up to see it as i tot its probably just a blue black ..i tot the water i felt was probably the tears from the pain.but i decided to just wake up and take a look on instinct. Then i saw the bleeding cut. Oh manz. it was so so painful. Did you know that our face has one of the most nerve endings in our entire body? Well that probably explains why a small cut can cause such intense pain. anyway that is not the scariest bit. After seeing the cut, i broke out into cold sweat and started to feel nauseous and had intense stomach pains. I started to think thoughts like 'oh no the cut probably damaged an impt nerve thats why i feel sick and now im gonna collapse and die' ' i better run to my neighbour and tell them to call an ambulance before i collapse in my room and nobody knows ..' ' so this is how my patients feel..' ' im never gonna eat my whole life..the feeling of nausea is too horrid ' ..so many thoughts were running through my head..hahaha all the silly silly thoughts. probably an occupational hazard.
I realised from this episode that i am really quite blessed in terms of health. I have never been hospitalized nor have had any major ailments. The worse i can think of is a severe bout of food poisoning which caused vomit to come out of my nostrils, mouth and anus. hahahaa.
anyway i called tristan during that episode. it was about 2am and boy was i glad that he picked up. One thing i am assured of , i could almost always find him when i need to no matter what time of the day. Woken up in the middle of his sleep, he spoke like the most assuring daddy ..i felt so much better after that. no wonder they say most illnesses are psychosomatic. I realised how important emotional and psychological support is during times of distress. The most amazing thing is he told he that he couldn't sleep that night and was wondering why. Then he said its probably coz he knew sth was gonna happen to me .wahah telepathy...
All that nausea and abdominal pain was probably not directly linked to my head injury..its probably part of an anxiety attack. The feeling that i am all alone in my room with this bleeding wound in the middle of the night was scary...hee im ok now. the clotted wound is still painful but im ok..its good to be in distress once in a while, then we realise how blessed we really are...

posted by Ng Yashi @ 11:43 am