TGIF!!!!!
TGIF !!!!!!!!!!!
Heee ..Well its not friday yet..but ..its coming! We must thank God in advance for his blessings ! hahaa...
Tristan is coming in about 2days time!! I am so so happy !!! Last night i was studying with lowie..we chatted quite a bit and frm our conversations, i realised how blessed i am to have tristan in my life. She asked me what is the thing that irritates me most about tristan, and i can say that i thought for the longest longest time.....becoz i really really cannot think of anything instantly that irritates me about him. Hes like the perfect man for me....hahaaa...He may not be the best for girl A or B, but hes perfectly made for ME ! wahah..and im perfectly made for him ..i guess ..wahahaa....Lowie told me, " Estee you are very lucky la, u must really treasure tristan ..."
Last night , i had a nightmare while studying (not sleeping!). I 'dreamt' that tristan was on the way home frm the pub after watching soccer and d--d from a car accident. Then i cried !! Literally ! then i imagined myself flying back to Singapore immediately and being sure that i could never ever find a man like him anymore...haizz..the imagination goes wild during exams...
haha before i know tristan, i had 5 bfs...each one did not last longer than 1 month..usually becoz i got tired of seeing the same face for a month ( i even challenged myself to make it thru the one month mark when i was dying inside! whaha...) ....
Now with tristan, its areidi
3 years and 8 months and im still looking forward to seeing and talking to him every single day ...
love like i'm gonna lose that person anytime....
Needs of the SOUL....
Needs of the SOUL - by Pastor Kong Hee 11th June 2006
1)
Spiritual -an area only God can fill
-to experience God. To encounter, come under the power of God
2)
Loveif there is no l0ve in our lives, we will feel empty
tts why we long for relationship, fellowship, community...
blogging etc ..
a need in the human soul to connect....
A sense of belonging to people we love and people who love us
tt is why our family is important. To feel love and to love them.
3)
Self esteemto feel proud of ourselves
asset who we are
even Jesus was attacked in this area
to doubt who he is " if u are the son of God, bow down and worship me..etc'
Christianity is not a bed of rose ..it is an ' in spite of ' faith ...4)
Knowledge5)
Securitye.g. economic security
6)
Asthetici.e. arts, painting, music, dance, sculpture, architecture, decoration
Whatever that is beautiful ......
We live an impoverished life if there is no art in our lives.
art : an expression of our creativity and innovation
art makes the invisible visiblebrings into the natural what we sense in the spiritcommunicates our emotion and ideas...
arts fills the soul with delight, with grandeur ...' a painting of the grand canyon ' ...
Fashion...Trend ....7)
Freedom in 4 areas....
a. in speech and expressionb. to worship c. from poverty and lack d. from fearIt is for freedom that Christ has set us free.....
Because of all these needs..we have what we have in society > Education> Church > Government> Media fighting for press freedom> Family ......> Arts Society can never achieve its full potential if any of these needs are not met. All these can be applied into our church ..asthetics > music , dancing, fashion ..freedom > not being controlled or forced to do things ..Knowledge > able to understand the word of GodSelf esteem> edifying, encouraging...Love > the Love of God, fellowship with others...Spiritual > filled with the presence of God... Security > in God , the church is open to its people ..
touched..
Been studying w lowena ( i call her LOWIE haha) we were chatting for a while then she said to me " you changed alot since i first knew you." I was touched because i know its for the better. Recently, Lowie would always be very happy to see me...she'll even miss me when im not around. Wow...i never thought i can be missed to this extent...wat a great encouragement during this time of exams...hee..im happy to say the unneccessary stress and anxiety that i always have in NYP during exams is absent here...
I have confidence because I have Jesus !! and of coz my family and tristan ...Remember to pray for me! ;p WOOOHOOOO...tristan
is coming in 8 daysssss....ARGHHHH...im so excited manz..beyond description !!!!!
rediscovering my vision
..........
..........kutersanjung
karna semua yang baik
dalam hidupku
itulah karya Mu
kau b'ri
k'sempatan yang baru...
i love this song by Bro Sydney from indonesia..i couldnt catch the whole song ..thou its in a different language i just felt the power of the holy spirit in the song.God is the same everywhere, in indonesia, in china, in singapore..
Recently i've been feeling like i do not noe what is God's purpose for my life...I have had a vision and somehow it has died...but this morning i felt like its has been revived again.
When pastor Kong shared this morning about the medical volunteers in Yogkarta..i felt like " yes i noe why i am doing Nursing" .."i noe why i am upgrading myself here, why i am here away from city harvest, away from cell group, away from tristan, away from my family.."
I sometimes wonder why i am studying so hard for, why work so hard when i earn so little?" I often feel the nurses in singapore are one of the most under appreciated and lowly paid 'profession' .
Today God told me....you are doing this becoz i have called you to. Then i remember about 4years ago how i was in NUS doing my arts degree. A friend brought me to church and i got saved. God spoke to me and i took the courage (despite many objections ) to drop out of NUS and take nursing in NYP. Thank God for a supportive family.
My life has never been the same since knowing God and doing nursing..
God reminded me of this....
Why am i doing nursing???" not to earn praises from teachers, family or friends for doing a good job or having such a noble profession, but to earn the praises from the Lord.
Why upgrade myself???To become an expert in my profession,
To be a light in the market place
To educate young nurses or students
To be a change agent for the profession
To be a person of influence...a reflection of His goodness ..so that others would want to know Him...
To be skilled so i can volunteer when there is an overseas medical emergency..
I am studying for exams now...
" success is not what we do COMPARED TO OTHERS , it is what we do COMPARED TO WHAT WE COULD HAVE DONE "
Thank You Lowena !!
Lowena..if u are reading this ..
i just wanna say a
BIG THANK YOU for helping me do my
genogram..
I didn't ask but u offered ! Despite feeling so sian and stuff, you still took the time out to help a computer idiot like me...and the genogram was so nice! I do wish you would feel less sianz soon....hee...its gonna be all over soon!! thank you girl..muakzzz....
Home sweet Homezz...
hee..im back home..been at kailee's and xiuhua's place the past two days. Its always such a good feeling to come back home..though i did enjoy staying at their place becoz they are such lovely girls!
We've been trying to
study the past two days for the upcoming exams..haha..one thing good about studying in groups is tt we can chitchat whenever we are bored..We take breaks together, snacked, talked about everything and anything and stay up till 3-5am..and of coz have supper..its like such a nice feeling. I love talking with K
aiLeE because she is very simple and sweet. During the stay i made her try some soy strawberry milk (which is really good !) and she had diarrhea..aiyo felt so bad...but thankfully shes ok now. I also love talking w xiuhua because she is such a good listener and patient.
XiUhuA
always initiates to cook, like a potential good wife and mother..the first night she cooked this for us ...
Japanese Stir fried sukiyaki and vegetables.On the 2nd night, we decided to have 'breakfast' for dinner
Bacon, eggs, bread, sausage...It was fun cooking together. Everybody being open,genunine, sincere, not putting up a front, respecting each other's wants, discussing openly about ideas, willing to consider other's opinions and ideas, able to let down our pride to say we made a mistake, giving each other their space when needed and communicating w trust and love. Being here in melbourne has really made me realise the importance of friends and how to treasure good ones.
