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working in CCU..

recieved good news that i can be posted to NUH CCU (critical care unit) as requested ! I have always felt that working in ICU would be very challenging, and becoz im not sure of my practical competency, the more i wanted to work there to challenge my mind and capacity. I also noe a few people there like joey ( who's like a genuinely caring big sistor to me) , venetia, fiona (whos doing her adv diploma in ICU) and darren (my sec schmate). I believe that i can learn many new things from them !
My graduation is on the 26th july 10am ! Pretty disappointed with the timing and day which is when most people i noe are working and cant attend to share my Joy. Im gonna be getting the MOH gold medal award that day along with my diploma with merit. Getting the award is certainly a big joy for me and my family (esp my mom). The award is a good reflection of the powerful impact that God has in my life since i came to know him. But along with this award also come feelings of apprehension. I am worried that i cannot perform up to expectations in NUH. This reminds me of what sis kless preached during CGM. About how we believe and yet have a level of doubt. I believe that without God i would not have done so well in school ( because alot of things is not just about hard work, its also about the circumstances tt day, whether watever i have learnt would be recalled, whether questions turn out the way i can answer etc) and by the Grace of God, i could do relatively well thou i put in less work during my 2nd and 3rd years. So i shld not doubt that God will come true for me this time.
For all my 3 years in school, i have never once compared myself to my friends or classmates. I have always worked up to my maximum capacity and then i'll be happy. i agree tt Competition may spur people to work harder, but i feel that competing with myself (my limits and abilities) helps me to do better than if i worked for the sake of winning others. Alot of people i know worked on this ' winning others ' mentality and i dun deny that when i was in secondary school i also had this mentality. all these changed when i came to know Jesus. He changed my mentality and helped me expand my capacity in my studies, ccas etc. To see the big picture and have the spirit of excellence in everything i purpose to do. Im prepared for a few stumbles and blurness when i join CCU, but im not afraid. Im only afraid that if i stumble i do not get up....
My biggest hope is that i would bring more people to God. A new environment means more lives to impact and change ! I pray that there wld never be a time when people wld say " she this kind of pattern where will attract us to go church ". I pray always for a heart of humility, patience, compassion and love for the people around me. Knowledge WILL NOT puff up for me ! hehee

posted by Ng Yashi @ 10:24 am